Yeah, I know. That's the last time I posted... At this point I'm just going to be honest and say "I have no frikken idea what to post about." I have blog-block. I have pseudo-performance anxiety. I have had next to no spare time, my life has served me a series of hugs and bitch-slaps, I have a deep need to stay the f**k away from my computer on weekends, I have too many excuses...
Screw it...the best thing for me to do is to repress the rising feeling of blog-barf itching in my fingertips, ignore the assumed need to write about every last thing that has happened to me in that last 6 months and instead focus on something succinct, creative, concrete...and a bit geeky-exciting...well, for me...First off, a confession: I have had a quiet yet BURNING need to learn how to make pretty flowers even prettier. This has been a whole-life thing. I have told very few people about this...well, before now, and it's been high on the 'me wantee' list of my life since I was about 8...probably earlier. I was constantly attempting high art made of flowers throughout my teen years, and into my 20's, but lacking the technical know-how, my well-thought out masterpieces would fall short in the 'artistic' department; think weeds and wildflowers plunked into a hollowed-out pumpkin at Thanksgiving, etc, etc... But still...the preoccupation...
I find flower shops insanely soothing...the cool, humid, fresh smell is a brain tonic, the colours and textures of the flowers and greenery set my hands humming the same way my jewelry bench does. I have spent way too many hours drooling over the posts of blogs like Saipua, often over my lunch-break at work...I cannot fight the urge any longer....I'M GOING TO FLOWER SCHOOL!!!
I start in September, taking a simple class every Sunday morning from 9 til noon...flower school will become my new church...surely so much more inspiring and uplifting than any church ever was or could ever be to me. I am obviously beyond excited...geek that I am.
I've been enabling this flower-lust a little bit this summer, as I mulled over the decision to enroll (I constantly over-analyze the spending of dollars on something like this...it's something I dearly want to do, but as I can't quiet yet decide how it's going to fit into my future-life as an artist - meaning 'will I make money doing this?'- I spend a lot of time waffling over whether I should do it or not. It's a totally sucky, bureaucratic brain process that is currently under revision...'cause it generally sucks the fun out of things...you know, like life...) I've been documenting too...here is some evidence of a growing preoccupation...
Pretty, yes? Can you understand why I'm so inspired...inspired to the point of not being able to think about what to blog about? See? I promise to document what I produce in Flower School, as I'm interested in seeing the 'evolution' from the silliness that I've recently produced, and the more finessed creations that lie before me. I also promise to blog sooner than 6 months from now. Promises, promises...